Monday, January 31, 2011

Sunday's Grateful Moments

I kinda live for weekends, even though I feel like I don't do enough on weekends. A perfect weekend for me would be a weekend where I could just decompress from everyone. Brandelyn once told me about how powerful it was for her to unplug from everything. I'm going to try that soon. Anyway on to Sunday's grateful moments. 

  1. It's been a week since I sent the email (I guess at some point in time I will have to address the email situation in a blog) and it's been hard. I do miss my friend but I am grateful for forgiveness. See, when I sent the email, which was sent from a place of anger and hurt, I meant everything I said in the email, especially the part that I forgive. I believe I'm getting to a place where I don't hold on to anger too long because it's not really worth it. Besides, true friends shouldn't be angry at each other for long periods of time. I'm not saying true friends don't get any at each other and don't hurt each other, but what I am saying is that TRUE friendship heals anger and hurt, through forgiveness. 
  2. Today, I'm thankful for friendship. Since I sent the email, it's really been an issue about what friendship really looks like to me. (I guess that's another blog I have to get on as well). Last night, during Ladies Night at Mi Casa Lounge, I told Patrice that we were going to a comedy show tonight to support Chris, a friend of mine from the old school. She was totally cool with it. Tonight, we went to a newer Oakland venue to support my old school homie. It was a good time, a bit much for a Sunday night but we had fun. I love that I have Patrice not only supporting me but also telling me when I'm wrong. To me, friendship is about holding friends accountable, through the good and bad. 
  3. Today, I'm grateful for silence. Sometimes, it's not about what you say but it's about what you don't say and how you act in light of what you don't say. As someone who feels, a lot of the time that they have to have the last word in conversations (read: arguments), sometimes the most powerful thing, is the thing you don't say. Do I regret not telling him how I feel? Yeah kinda but I'm not necessarily talking about that kind of silence. There is a powerful silence that happens when you don't say anything and you let things happen.
  4. Today, I'm thankful for laughter and not taking things (or myself) too seriously. I generally don't like stand up comedy. Part of that might have to be the things that I like or find funny aren't generally appealing to everyone. As Patrice and I were driving back to my house, I was telling her about a conversation that I had with someone who suggested that I get into stand up comedy. I joked about how all my jokes would be about Star Wars and Baseball, because those are some of the things that I like. But tonight, while we were at Chris' show, one of the comedians decided to pick on me a little bit, which was fine. I didn't look or say anything too crazy and I kinda just laughed it off. If I was feeling myself, I would have wanted to talk all types of crazy to him but I realized, it wasn't that serious. This man makes his living telling jokes. If he wants to tell a couple of jokes at your expense, as long as he's not insulting or disrespectful, laugh a little and wait until he gets off the stage. What's the worse that could happen? Your friends crack jokes on you for a little while...big deal. In my case tonight, I came away with a new nickname (I'm sure it won't stick too long: Sugar Shoulders). Hahaha, it's all good. Like I said, I don't take myself too seriously so I'm good. 
  5. Today is one more day that I'm grateful to not be a member of the DDS and/or DMS. Again nothing major happening. Just another moment of appreciation. 
When I post this blog, it will be the last Monday in January. I feel like so much time is going past me and I feel like I have so much going on. Let me take some steps to get closer to more inner peace and some of my other goals on my 2011 Vision/Inspiration Board. 

Father, I thank you for another opportunity and another little bit of your grace and mercy. #thatisall

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Saturday's Thankful List

Here's Saturday's (1-30-11) list: 

  1. Today, I'm thankful for laughter. Laughter makes the world go 'round. Laughter and truth.
  2. Today, I'm thankful for girl talk. Tonight we had girl talk at the house for a long time. I'm thankful for the lounge nights at Mi Casa Lounge.
  3. Today, I'm grateful for grace. God protects me from so much time and time again.
  4. Today, I'm grateful for the weekend and what the weekend means. To me, the weekend means, no schedules, nap times and doing what the hell I want to, when I want to. 
  5. Today's another day that I'm not a member of the DDS and/or DMS. Today wasn't over the top with either one of them in one way or the other. Some times, no news is good news. 
Thank you Lord for another chance and hopefully another opportunity to try and get it right. #thatisall

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Friday's Grateful Moments

Besides the fact that today is (was) Friday, here's what I am grateful for: 

  1. Today, I am grateful that I'll be getting a little bit more money in my paycheck starting Tuesday (today was just a preview).
  2. Today, I am grateful that even though I overslept, I was able to be on time for today's meeting/discussion. It was at this discussion that I found out there will not be any layoffs in my department. I am grateful for some job stability.
  3. Today, I reflected on the 25th anniversary of the Challenger tragedy. Although, that one event changed my career path (at 6), I am thankful to remember such a historic but horrific event.
  4. Today, I'm thankful that I got my highest score in Bejeweled Blitz (yeah it's the little things).
  5. Today, I'm thankful that I was able to walk my mom through being able to turn her computer off and turn it back on (yeah it was that simple) to get it to work again and I talked to my dad, which means that I am not a member of the DDS and/or DMS. 
Today was a good day. Hopefully I will get some rest this weekend. Thank you Lord for weekends, grace and mercy. 

Friday, January 28, 2011

Thursday's Thankfulness (01-27-11)

I'm just about completely used to this.

  1. Today, I'm thankful for perspective and friendships. I can honestly say I know (most of the time) when I'm right and when I'm wrong and I am able to explain (read: defend) my point of view in both times.
  2. Today, I'm thankful for a niece's love. When I get home, my niece was happy to see me. That's a good feeling. 
  3. Today, I'm thankful for music and the great memories that music can bring back. Jammin' to Master P (How You Do Dat) this AM while in the shower and then Beyonce' (Naughty Girl). Two songs, on different ends of the spectrum that made me smile this AM. Helped my day get off to a great start. 
  4. Today, I'm grateful for Jesus and his parables. Being able to make a point through telling a story is the effective way to ensure that the lesson sticks.
  5. Today (uh huh, you know what's coming), I'm grateful for another day that I'm not a member of the DDS and/or DMS. We're getting better at communicating with each other. Now if I could only get them to communicate better with each other. That's another story.
Thank you Lord for reflection, love and friendship. They are important and I am thankful.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Humpday Thankfulness (01-26-11)

Today was a good day. Let's get right to it: 

  1. Today, I'm grateful that my co-worker's husband brought me lunch. He didn't have to do it but I'm grateful that he did. It wasn't healthy but it was still good.
  2. Today, I'm thankful for technology. I was able to spend over an hour on Skype helping my niece write an essay. Even though, I was distracted by other things (Facebook) I feel good about being able to help her with an essay for college. I wasn't too preachy and I wasn't going to do it for her. I wanted her to understand what I was saying and make it stick for her. 
  3. Today, I'm thankful for truth, honesty and perspective. I have friends and family who don't hesitate to tell me when I'm right or when I am wrong. And I appreciate having my own perspective to distinguish between the two. 
  4. Today I'm grateful that I went to Bible Study tonight. I am growing and could have been growing if I just made some made more time and less excuses. 
  5. Today, like the previous days, I'm grateful to not be a member of the DDS and/or DMS. Today, I talked to my dad for a little while and let him know that I still loved him (I threw some reverse psychology on him, he was good for throwing guilt trips on me so I threw one on him). I talked to my mom about some things with my dad and then told my mom in a very loving way that she and my sister have effective communication challenges. I told her that I kinda understand it but the truth is you don't know how to talk to people. I still love you though...
Thank you Lord for all you continue to do for me and through me. 

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Tuesday's (01-25-11) Grateful/Thankful List

The intro into today's list is kinda bland. Maybe that means that the list itself will actually worth something. If not, it doesn't make me less thankful.

  1. Today, I'm thankful that I could make my mom laugh. We talked for a little while today and I was happy to make her laugh. Even though, she spent part of the time calling me Lisa, which isn't new. 
  2. Today, I'm grateful that I have learned from previous heartache and disappointment. I hope that I can share my lessons and not sound like I'm preaching. 
  3. Today, I'm grateful to be in my right mind. I thought I had lost it for a second. The imagination is a powerful thing and if you don't keep it in check, it can make you crazy. 
  4. Today, I'm grateful to live in California. I've been home for 6 years and when I think about where I was 6 years ago, I am grateful to be where I am. It's not perfect but I'll take not perfect over where I was before. 
  5. Today, yes, I am grateful that I am not a member of the DDS and/or DMS. I had a conversation with a co worker of mine about some drama that's been going on since her mom passed and I am thankful to not be going through that right now. 
Not exciting but still thankful. Lord, thank you. 

Monday, January 24, 2011

Monday's (01-24-11) Thankful List

Can I just say that I had a major case of the Mondays today? Not even I hate all things Monday, I just couldn't get motivated to do anything. Nothing work related, nothing on my personal to do list, just nothing. I sat in a meeting for almost two hours and I think that zapped everything that I had. After that it was all down hill and the meeting ended before noon. Yikes. But despite all of that, I am grateful and here are a few reasons why: 

  1. Today, I am grateful that God has not given up on me. He's allowed me to grow in ways that I couldn't imagine. Growing up from someone who always has to have the last word, to someone who doesn't always need to argue. Speak your peace, listen and move on. 
  2. Today, I am thankful for true friends (or in some cases, true friendship moments). True friendship, I believe is one of God's greatest gifts and when you have people who will speak from their heart, honestly and truthfully, you can't really be mad at what they say, even if you don't agree. 
  3. Today, I'm thankful that I had dinner with my girl. Although it threw a wrench in my after work plans, it was good time well spent. 
  4. Today, I can say that I am grateful for the struggles that I have gone through, whether they were a result of me not listening, me not seeing, me not believing or just me being me. They all have helped shape me into the person I am. Even better they help me to help others become better versions of who they could really be. I try really hard not to say I told you so to people because I know it doesn't help the situation. I just tell my own story and hope that you can learn from it. (God is really working on me. That ties into yesterday's sermon at church. Aww snap *snap*)
  5. Last but not least, today I'm grateful for another day that I'm not a member of the DDS and/or DMS. I think that this time with my parents, I am learning to be a lot more rational with them, being able to walk away from them when they aren't being rational and to not take their behavior personally. I'm glad I'm learning these things now versus later. 
Thank you Lord, for these small moments that make a big impact in my life. 

Sunday's Thankful Moments (01-23-11)

It's almost been a week since I've been doing the grateful/thankful moments and I feel good about that. I just need to do better about doing it earlier so that I can do to bed at a decent hour. With that said, on with today's list. 

  1. Today, I'm grateful that I saw my niece today in church and I got an "I Love You" tweet from my oldest niece. I wish I could spend more time with both of them. 
  2. Today, I'm grateful that I have a pastor who's worried about my well being. After church today, he mentioned to me about how he thought I wouldn't make it to church because I was up late. But I was there (yes, I was running late but I got there in time to march in with the choir) in church, in place, in praise. 
  3. Today, I am thankful for the Word that I heard at church today. It gave me what I needed to do what I had to do this evening. 
  4. Today, I'm grateful for my relationship with my cousin. We talked today and it was cool. I wish I could spend more time with her too. 
  5. Today, I'm grateful for another day that I'm not a member of the DDS and/or DMS. My mom gave me some chicken wings from KFC today and I was able to watch the last half of the football game with my dad.
My life is about simple things and moments. Everything doesn't always go that way all the time but I am grateful for the simple things and simple moments. Thank you Lord for the simple things that make this not so simple person happy. 

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Five Things I am Grateful/Thankful for (01-22-11)

Can I just say, I couldn't wait until it was time to blog. I had a helluva a day. Blog time means it's also almost bedtime which means, whatever happened the day before doesn't have any impact on the day I will have when I wake up and believe me I had a day today. I want to blog about it, you wanna hear (read) it, here it goes. 
  1. Today, I am thankful that I received a phone call from my brother today. I hadn't really talked to him in some time and for him to provide some real insight was completely amazing . I do miss him and talking to him was more helpful than he could ever realize. 
  2. Today, I am thankful for tears, because they are more cleansing than anything. They may look hideous when they fall, but their beauty is far beyond comprehension. 
  3. Today, I am truly grateful for my California living. Today it was in the mid 60s in the middle of January. While most people I know are complaining about snow, ice and whatever - we got SUNSHINE!
  4. Today, I am grateful for friends and family who say what they need to say and listen when they need to listen but do both (in most cases) with YOUR best interests in mind. No one likes to see you sad, hurt or mad. The truth of the matter is that you don't like feeling that way anyway. 
  5. Today, like days before, I am grateful for another day that I am not a member of the DDS and/DMS. Until my dad comes home, I will say this probably everyday. 
  6. **BONUS** I am soooooooooooo grateful that a situation is being removed from my life. Definitely not what or how I wanted things to happen but I know that God's already working my situation out for me and I will trust Him to do so. He doesn't make mistakes and He gives you what you need and not what you want. And for THAT I am grateful. 
Thank you Lord for keeping me safe from harm and safe from myself. 

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Friday's (01-21-11) Thankful/Grateful Moments

Well today was a little interesting. My two co-workers who keep me entertained at work were not there today, which made for a very quiet time at work. Speaking of work, let me begin my list: 

  1. Today, I am thankful that my boss told me that all the jobs were safe in my department at work. That is a sigh of relief from OE. 
  2. Today, I am thankful that I got to talk to my sister and my niece for over an hour. I do miss my sister and my niece, even though I know my sister is nuts. 
  3. Today, I was grateful to be able to hang out with one of my home girls that I hadn't hung out with since last year (like October/November). We went to go support my godsister who did an amazing job tonight. 
  4. Today, I'm thankful that I'm not caught up in some major drama. Point. Blank. Period. 
  5. Today (just like the days before), I am grateful to not be a member of the DDS and/or DMS. I found out the someone had stage four cancer, had a tumor removed, only to have it come back two years later. That could easily be me. And I'm thankful/grateful that it's not. 
Thank you Lord, for all you've done, you will do and are doing right now. 

Friday, January 21, 2011

Thursday's (01-20-11) Thankful/Grateful List

Today had some bumps in it. There are things that are becoming more clear as I have gotten older. And I promise I am going to really go in on what marriage should mean. But enough of that....on to today's list. 

  1. Today, I started the day completely silly. It made the day pretty interesting in a good way. Laughter is good for grown ups. 
  2. Today, I ran into someone who wants to help me do big things in the future. Don't worry boo, we'll have time to work that out.
  3. Tonight me and Patrice went to the basketball game and were back to our usual antics. It was a little weird not being in our normal seats but I was happy to be back after the Stanford game and the Kansas debacle. 
  4. Today I cranked out 3 blogs (including this one). That's pretty impressive. And I'm actually going to do another blog for the sole purpose of exposing foolishness I see in the streets. (That might be the name, I'm still working out the name and the details. With my luck, I'm sure I'll have tons of ammo)
  5. Today was another day that I wasn't a member of the DDS and/or the DMS. Dad called me and sounded completely unhappy but there wasn't anything that I could do about it. 
  6. ***BONUS*** Today I actually applied some of what JP talked about regarding sphere of influence. THAT was very encouraging. I didn't stress over things that I had no control over. That was a pretty good thing. And it felt good too. I put this as a bonus because it relates to #5
In my best Ice Cube voice, today was a good day. Thank you Lord. I know it didn't have to be so. 

Thursday, January 20, 2011

May Be Debuting A New Blog

So I was talking to my partner in crime, trying to get some buy in from her about doing another blog. When she and I go out, we almost always see some foolishness. Maybe it's where we go, maybe we attract the foolishness, either way, we seem to attract tons of foolishness in the streets. I was trying to get her in on it but then I think about it, there are some silly things that I see when I'm not with her. Working in Berkeley, I always see something just hella crazy. So I'm thinking about doing a new blog, Foolishness I see in the streets. What do ya'll think?

Wednesday's (01-19-11) Thankful/Grateful List

Can I just say that I am really trying to make this a habit? This is one of the last things I've done for the night for 3 nights in a row! (I struggle with developing good habits so I mark this as a minor accomplishment). Here's tonight's thankful/grateful list:

  1. I'm grateful that today was a better day. Even if I did over sleep and still get to work 20 mins after I said I would, it was a great day. 
  2. I'm grateful that I share a cubicle with a guy who makes me laugh by just being him and have a best friend who is the extreme opposite of you and you love her anyway. Imagine if you will, a young 26 year old Korean kid taking 5 singles out of his pocket and making it rain in the cubicle. If it's not funny to you, don't worry. The shit is hilarious to me. As for the BFF, she and I were talking about how frustrating it is to come home from work and you see someone in your house with their feet propped up. It's even more frustrating when they ask you what's for dinner like they haven't been sitting there doing a whole lot of nothing. My foolio BFF said that she would do like Kathy Bates in Misery and take a sledgehammer to the ankles. Now if that isn't funny to you, then maybe you shouldn't be reading my blog anyway.
  3. I'm grateful/thankful for LW telling me to fill out the FMLA paperwork. That made it pretty easy for me to leave and go see my father who was having a moment in the middle of the day, without having to worry about anything later. 
  4. I'm grateful that I was able to get laundry done and go to bible study tonight. AND I found Old Faithful which will make it's way into this week's wardrobe either tomorrow or Friday. Bible study was nice tonight. It was refreshing to go and read the Word and feel a little bit better about some things. I'm trying to do better. Bare with me. 
  5. I'm thankful for another day that I'm not a member of the DDS and/or DMS. One of my former co-workers joined the society today. I don't know all the details but my heart does go out to him and his family. The last couple of blogs I've posted this as something on the list because I know that this can change at a moment's notice. Today I was able to go to the hospital and see my dad, have a discussion with his doctor, nurse and case worker, update my mom on the situation, go to their house, use their washer and dryer and have a conversation with my mom about Law and Order: SVU. Sometimes it's just the simple things and I am thankful for those simple things.
Thanks God. Now let me go to bed so that I can be close to on time to work tomorrow. 

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Five Things I Am Thankful/Grateful For (01-18-11)

So I'm slipping into a bad place right now and I need to find ways to keep me from going there. With that said, here's tonight's I'm thankful/grateful list:

  1. Today, I am thankful that Jeremy Dante' explained Tumblr to me. I know that seems real small but he was pretty genuine when he came to my desk to explain something that I asked him on Twitter. Kinda dorky but completely up my dorky alley.
  2. Today, I am grateful to find out that tonight's episode of NCIS is already online. Oh snap *snap*
  3. I'm grateful today that my dad's best friend asked me what was wrong and seemed really concerned that I was unhappy/sad. She didn't do anything out of the ordinary, she just cared which is what I needed. 
  4. Today was another day that I am not a member of the DDS or the DMS, for that I'm grateful. 
  5. Today we had some new faces at tonight's alumni meeting. That was a good thing. 
After NCIS goes off, I'm gonna go to bed, but check to see if The Good Wife is online. If it is, I might watch that, then go to bed. Tomorrow's hump day...another day to be grateful and thankful for. 

Monday, January 17, 2011

The 5 Things I'm Grateful For (01-17-11)

In the midst of my frustrations, I realize that there are lots of things for me to be grateful for. As I just signed off of Facebook for the night, I'll keep this brief so that I can get to bed in a timely fashion.

The Five Things I'm Grateful/Thankful for today:
  1. Today I woke up on this side of the living, was able and clothed in my right mind for the whole day.
  2. Today, I got to interact with a lot of inspiring young African American teens who are on the journey for a higher education. Hopefully the ones that touched will at least apply to Howard. If not, I still gave them something to think about. 
  3. Despite getting lost and frustrated, I made it to MoAD in the city and back. My car stayed in one place which is many things to be thankful for within itself. 
  4. Today, I was productive. Even though I didn't get everything I wanted to do done, I got some things done and got them in motion. 
  5. Today was another day that I wasn't a member of the DDS or DMS. Even though I was a little frustrated that my dad's back in the hospital, the reason wasn't as serious as it could have been and for that I am grateful. 
Thank you Lord for this.